Tuesday, November 18, 2008

Finally Published!!!!!



for some reason when I try to embed this image, it's much too big for this page and the pic is too small to read. Oh well. I'm STILL excited! I've published my very first book! It's available for preview and purchase at lulu.com

whohooooooooooo
it's makes a great Christmas gift!!
or birthday gift
or anniversary gift
or just-because gift! hahahahahah

all proceeds will go to support my son's eating habits!

Saturday, October 25, 2008

Palin "Going Rogue"?

Palin's 'going rogue,' McCain aide says
Published: 10/25/08, 8:00 PM EDT
From John King, Peter Hamby and Dana Bash CNN
ALBUQUERQUE, New Mexico (CNN) - With 10 days until Election Day, long-brewing tensions between GOP vice presidential candidate Gov. Sarah Palin and key aides to Sen. John McCain have become so intense, they are spilling out in public, sources say.
Several McCain advisers have suggested to CNN that they have become increasingly frustrated with what one aide described as Palin "going rogue."

A Palin associate, however, said the candidate is simply trying to "bust free" of what she believes was a damaging and mismanaged roll-out.

McCain sources say Palin has gone off-message several times, and they privately wonder whether the incidents were deliberate. They cited an instance in which she labeled robocalls -- recorded messages often used to attack a candidate's opponent -- "irritating" even as the campaign defended their use. Also, they pointed to her telling reporters she disagreed with the campaign's decision to pull out of Michigan.

A second McCain source says she appears to be looking out for herself more than the McCain campaign.

"She is a diva. She takes no advice from anyone," said this McCain adviser. "She does not have any relationships of trust with any of us, her family or anyone else.

"Also, she is playing for her own future and sees herself as the next leader of the party. Remember: Divas trust only unto themselves, as they see themselves as the beginning and end of all wisdom."

A Palin associate defended her, saying that she is "not good at process questions" and that her comments on Michigan and the robocalls were answers to process questions.

But this Palin source acknowledged that Palin is trying to take more control of her message, pointing to last week's impromptu news conference on a Colorado tarmac.

Tracey Schmitt, Palin's press secretary, was urgently called over after Palin wandered over to the press and started talking. Schmitt tried several times to end the unscheduled session.

"We acknowledge that perhaps she should have been out there doing more," a different Palin adviser recently said, arguing that "it's not fair to judge her off one or two sound bites" from the network interviews.

The Politico reported Saturday on Palin's frustration, specifically with McCain advisers Nicolle Wallace and Steve Schmidt. They helped decide to limit Palin's initial press contact to high-profile interviews with Charlie Gibson of ABC and Katie Couric of CBS, which all McCain sources admit were highly damaging.

In response, Wallace e-mailed CNN the same quote she gave the Politico: "If people want to throw me under the bus, my personal belief is that the most honorable thing to do is to lie there."

But two sources, one Palin associate and one McCain adviser, defended the decision to keep her press interaction limited after she was picked, both saying flatly that she was not ready and that the missteps could have been a lot worse.

They insisted that she needed time to be briefed on national and international issues and on McCain's record.

"Her lack of fundamental understanding of some key issues was dramatic," said another McCain source with direct knowledge of the process to prepare Palin after she was picked. The source said it was probably the "hardest" to get her "up to speed than any candidate in history."

Schmitt came to the back of the plane Saturday to deliver a statement to traveling reporters: "Unnamed sources with their own agenda will say what they want, but from Gov. Palin down, we have one agenda, and that's to win on Election Day."

Yet another senior McCain adviser lamented the public recriminations.

"This is what happens with a campaign that's behind; it brings out the worst in people, finger-pointing and scapegoating," this senior adviser said.

This adviser also decried the double standard, noting that Democratic nominee Sen. Barack Obama's running mate, Sen. Joe Biden, has gone off the reservation as well, most recently by telling donors at a fundraiser that America's enemies will try to "test" Obama.

Tensions like those within the McCain-Palin campaign are not unusual; vice presidential candidates also have a history of butting heads with the top of the ticket.

John Edwards and his inner circle repeatedly questioned Sen. John Kerry's strategy in 2004, and Kerry loyalists repeatedly aired in public their view that Edwards would not play the traditional attack dog role with relish because he wanted to protect his future political interests.

Even in a winning campaign like Bill Clinton's, some of Al Gore's aides in 1992 and again in 1996 questioned how Gore was being scheduled for campaign events.

Jack Kemp's aides distrusted the Bob Dole camp and vice versa, and Dan Quayle loyalists had a list of gripes remarkably similar to those now being aired by Gov. Palin's aides.

With the presidential race in its final days and polls suggesting that McCain's chances of pulling out a win are growing slim, Palin may be looking after her own future.

"She's no longer playing for 2008; she's playing 2012," Democratic pollster Peter Hart said. "And the difficulty is, when she went on 'Saturday Night Live,' she became a reinforcement of her caricature. She never allowed herself to be vetted, and at the end of the day, voters turned against her both in terms of qualifications and personally."

HairyCane


He asked me what I was going through

See he couldn’t understand the new ‘me’

I guess I shouldn’t be surprised

‘cause as of late all eyes had been on me

I had changed.

Once quiet breeze now Hairycane..

I refrained from chemically altering my hair

How dare I be free?

“your hair used to be so pretty”

Was all they could say the day I walked in

Rockin’ two strand twists

Twisted their minds one mo’ time

With silk locs but no I wouldn’t stop there

Scared them straight when corn rows draped my shoulders

Made bolder by the black wooden beads engraved with free…’huru’ in Swahili

They can’t see the beauty in that

Not the flyness of my headwraps or the

Love I see in my naps

Kinked up and fro’d out

I’m much more concerned about the content of my character

Rather than the straightness of my mane

Had to retrain my own thinking as to what this queen’s crown should look like

And despite the pressure from company execs.

They truly expected a tete-et-tete to intimidate me into who I used to be

I just smiled

Raised my arched brow

Leaned in uncomfortably close

And said hell no

My ‘fro has nothing to do with my work

But everything to do who I am

And I gives a dayum about your promotions

Or your Eurocentric notions about what success looks like

Are my figures right?

Do my calculations sync?

They do? Then worry less about my naps and kinks

And more about the caliber of my labor

Do me a favor and weigh my conscious cloud against the way I’ve allowed

The demands of my vocation to take over my vacations and the countless hours

From home that I’ve droned away at my tasks and not even asked you for the overtime that is

Rightfully mine.

So I decline your offers of assimilation and remain in the station

You’ve relegated for me as “not a team player” while you give your

“There is no “I” in team” spiel

But let’s keep it real, there’s no “u” in team either. You fail to see the true meaning

Of the word.

It’s 4 different letters coming together for one purpose; to create something that cannot be created

by each letter alone…but please hone in on the catcher

no 2 letters are the same

Rather, they are all unique and don’t change themselves to complete the task of building a word

So it’s absurd to think that in order to be team we have to all be the same

Or look the same

Or think the same

you need my hairycane to shake this thang’ up!

I’ve given up way too much of myself already

So what you see right now

Is what you get and if that doesn’t work, then go find your Stedfort

Employee and let me go.

Cause I know who I am

and that’s not going to change

not your quiet breeze

you’ll see me coming

Hairycane
Indie Arie - I am not my hair - Indie Arie featuring Akon

Reflections of My Heart


I sat and listened to this song for hours yesterday and this morning. I'm a sucker for beautiful lyrics. I am also Rachelle Ferrell's biggest fan EVER!!!! I HEART HER!!!!!!!!!!!!
It's funny though... this song never struck me like it does now. I have known since the day I met Ren (the love of my lifeeee) that there was something... different and right...about me when I was with him and when I spoke with me. The lyrics of this song perfectly describe it...the way that I found myself when I looked at me through him. In the middle of my pondering this song, I got a text message from Ren saying "thank you...why, you may ask? because of you, I am a better me. I found myself when I found you"
ok so yall know I'm ALLL jacked up now hahahaha.
yeah... I believe there's a doorway to me..inside..him
anyway..somebody is singing this song at my wedding. I will begggggg Rachelle's musical director (a friend of mine) to get her to sing it for me hahahahaha. Just thought I would share this song with you guys...especially my sisters who have found that someone who is the true reflection of their hearts
Favor,
Rare


Reflections of My Heart - Rachelle Ferrell

Verse 1

He boggles me when he looks at me
I no longer see what is right before my eyes
Something happens and I don't know why
I begin to fall…

Verse 2

She looks at me and alters reality
There's nothing more to see but what is right before my eyes
Something happens and I don't know why
I begin to fall…

Pivot

Isn't it funny how we see the same thing in each other?
Feels like we're a mirror for one another

Chorus

I believe there's a doorway to me…inside you
I perceive a sure way to love…honest and true
When I look in your eyes see, familiar surprise see
Reflections of my heart

Verse 3

I feel somehow, somewhere, in some way we've always been connected
I sense that I know what I don't know and it's just what I've always expected
There's a strange familiarity about you and me…
We seem to flow effortlessly and begin to fall…

Chorus

I believe there's a doorway to me…inside you
I perceive a sure way to Love…honest and true
When I look in your eyes see, familiar surprise see
Reflections of my heart
Reflections of my heart
Reflections of my heart
Reflections of My Heart - Rachelle Ferrell

What is this thing called ~LOVE~


It has been an interesting weekend on GWI. LAWD!
All of this stuff takes me back to my younger days...because I saw it more often then.
i'm reminded of the Musiq song "Love"...the chorus says:
Love - so many people use your name in vain.
Love - Those who have faith in you sometimes go astray
Love - Through all the ups and down and joy and hurts
Love - For better or worse I still will choose you first.

hmm....but what does it mean to choose love?
"Love is patient and kind; love is not jealous or boastful; it is not arrogant or rude. Love does not insist on its own way; it is not irritable or resentful; it does not rejoice at wrong, but rejoices in the right. Love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things. Love never ends; as for prophecies, they will pass away; as for tongues, they will cease; as for knowledge, it will pass away. For our knowledge is imperfect and our prophecy is imperfect; but when the perfect comes, the imperfect will pass away. When I was a child, I spoke like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child; when I became a man, I gave up childish ways. For now we see in a mirror dimly, but then face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall understand fully, even as I have been fully understood. So faith, hope, love abide, these three; but the greatest of these is love. "1 Cor 13:4-13

My belief is that choosing love means choosing the high road even when it's hard. In life, we don't always get what we want...and that's not necessarily a bad thing because sometimes the things we want aren't meant for us or aren't good for us. I have to trust that since God knows my end from my beginning that there is a reason certain things and/or people are outside my grasp. sometimes I am not good for them. sometimes they are not good for me. other times, I am not ready for them..or they are not ready for me. If I am love; possess love; espouse love; give love, I have to be sure I understand the meaning of the word. Love is patient and kind. If what I feel is impatient and unkind to the person I claim to love or those that that person loves, then it isn't love.
Love is not jealous or boastful. If I covet something - a relationship; a connection; a tangible belonging - or someone
it isn't love.
Love is not arrogant or rude. If I possess arrogance and rudeness. I am not nor do I possess love.
LOVE DOES NOT INSIST ON IT'S OWN WAY. If it's my way or the highway; If I lust after something so much that I am willing to destroy it rather than allow it to flourish simply because it won't be mine, Love has nothing to do with it. Selfishness is not a quality that love possesses. Love is the epitome of selflessness. Sometimes loving something and loving someone means letting it/them go. It's not easy,. If it were, there would be nothing special or miraculous about love. Love is not about SELF. Love is about holding something/someone so precious and dear that we want what is best for it's preservation and happiness..even if it means losing it. phrases like "if I can't have________(fill in the blank), nobody can" do not exist within the framework of love. If what you feel isn't this mature, then it's not love
Love is not irritable or resentful; it does not rejoice at wrong, but rejoices in the right
if I am consumed and don't care who gets hurt; if I am wreckless with my emotions and the emotions of those affected by my actions; if I don't regard even the feelings of the one I purport to love, It simply isn't love. If I am happy when I make someone elses way harder, it ain't love.
Love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things. Love never ends
if it means heartbreak.,.love lets me bear it..with grace and dignity
if it means confusion...love allows me to believe that there is a higher purpose and a greater blessing for me at the end of the journey
if it means feeling broken...love gives me the fortitude to keep hope in my heart that God has my back and will prove Himself faithful.
If it means my world feels like it's falling apart...love gives me the strength to ENDURE. I know a mender who will hold it together when I can't.

1st John 4:7,8
Beloved let us love one another
for everyone that loveth is born of God and knoweth God
He that loveth not, knoweth not God
FOR GOD IS LOVE

If it isn't divine and sacrificing
if it isn't patient & kind
if it is jealous and boastful
if it is arrogant and rude
if it insists on it's own way
if it is irritable and resentful
if it rejoices in the wrong and not the right
if it does not bear all things, believe all things, hope all things, and endure all things
if it ends...
It's just not love
LOVE- KIRK FRANKLIN - Kirk Franklin

Lessons My Son Taught Me


His smile reaches his eyes
Before settling upon his lips
And tinkling out with each breath as laughter
It seems he’s always happy
Even when it’s raining
Even when it’s dark outside…and in
Because the lights are turned off
…just ‘til payday
He wishes we watched movies on my battery-powered laptop while eating cereal by candlelight
more often
He has no cognition of deprivation
He just knows that when he’s hungry, mama feeds him
And that he’s never gone without
And that mama always has a new pair of shoes for him
When the ones he has on wear out
He screams with glee when he sees the spiderman coat from the goodwill
Because it may not be brand spankin’ new, but it’s new to him still
And he doesn’t even realize that he’s teaching me to see life through his eyes
I appreciate the little I have and in the midst of hard times I don’t forget to laugh
My son doesn’t worry about gas prices or how much food is going to cost
He doesn’t think about scraping up rent so we don’t get tossed out on the street
He simply greets each day with unwavering belief that his every need will be met
No matter how much money is in the bank he doesn’t get upset. He just Trusts in me
And the irony is sometimes I don’t even trust myself. Above all else he believes in me
‘cause he sees, in me, that come hell or high water I would lay down my life gladly for his
So why is it that I waver in my faith sometimes when in my mind and heart I know
That even in lack, I have no cognition of deprivation
When we are hungry, God makes a way and we have never gone without
And when my baby needs a new pair of shoes, I get them because for some heavenly reason
The 3 yr old shoes I have on just won’t wear out.
And when it was cold outside and my baby needed a coat and all I had to my name was a dollar sixty
I screamed in joy when I found that spiderman coat in Goodwill that looked brand new and costs only $1.50
God has ALWAYS made a way
Every single day of my life and I gotta trust Him…just like my son trusts me
Because I know that when came hell and high water, Jesus laid down his life for me and mine
So I won’t whine or complain about anything.
And when it seems that I am always happy
Know that it’s by choice rather than circumstance
because I know in advance who my Father is
For His yoke is easy and His burden is light
So regardless of what it may look like, I know everything’s
Alright
Alright - Ledisi